Current mood:	confused
Current music:	no music. im still trying to sort it all out.

Donnie Darko.
I havent updated in a long time. So, sorry to whatever poor fool actually reads this.

Mad World
"and i find it kind of funny and i find it kind of sad, that the dreams in which im dying are the best i've ever had"

I've been ups and downs. Finally got the whole shayna thing straightened out, which is good thing. (Desperation fer her, and a need to prove myself for me, you were right cell. i owe you a quarter)

chaos. in my mind.

here's an excerpt of a IM between me n' one o' me friends, chris.

DoomLordsBlade (11:20:20 PM): god.
DoomLordsBlade (11:20:25 PM): that was some crazy
DoomLordsBlade (11:20:28 PM): strike that
DoomLordsBlade (11:20:32 PM): i cant put it in words
DJ Theory 2k (11:20:42 PM): what happened?
DoomLordsBlade (11:20:43 PM): i just saw Donnie Darko
DJ Theory 2k (11:20:48 PM): and
DoomLordsBlade (11:20:55 PM): did you ever see it?
DJ Theory 2k (11:21:20 PM): no
DoomLordsBlade (11:21:29 PM): then you wouldnt understand.
DoomLordsBlade (11:21:37 PM): even if you saw it.
DJ Theory 2k (11:21:46 PM): ok
DoomLordsBlade (11:21:50 PM): you probably wouldnt understand it the same way i do.
DJ Theory 2k (11:22:20 PM): ok

DJ Theory 2k (11:25:04 PM): so, whats goin on
DoomLordsBlade (11:25:22 PM): my head
DoomLordsBlade (11:25:23 PM): chaos
DJ Theory 2k (11:26:06 PM): is this chaos good or bad?
DoomLordsBlade (11:26:11 PM): bad


In a sad way, i think i would do something like that.

i dont know anymore. i really dont know. chaos is loose in my mind. and tonight im going to walk. try to let loose the wild side i've kept penned up for so goddam long. maybe start a fight, probably get beaten senseless. i...i just dont know anymore. i dunno who i love, and who loves me any more. my world's in the chaos of my mind. leave a comment.